I have seldom felt this stressed. every stacks up and everything is forcing me to grow up and face the realities of this world.

From that sheltered company to the one i am now, I just feel like my life just took a 300029372138127321 degree twist and turn, and now i am here trying to orientate myself, while looking at the stack of notes i am supposed to read, and left to ponder, what have i got myself into.

I prayed that if God wants to use me in this industry, then let me into this industry. then suddenly i feel like im so lost in this industry. Im like a baby trying to comprehend what adults are talking about.

God continue to lead me please.. Let me shine for Yu, in this darkest hour.. I will be salt and light for You, but only if You permit me to. Its all in Your hands..

I consider this a great honour if You are testing me.. but please don't test me beyond my means.. I know that i should be joyful for the test, but please go easy on me..

i really really really hate exams.

so many papers lining up.

i never thought that i were ever suffer from insomnia, but here I am.. having a fever and too stressed to sleep. cheers. Life is great!

Last Friday, went to have a ADULTS CG!

alot of ppl, and there was screening of the movie fly wheel.

which in the show, there was a car which was beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful, but had a damaged flywheel, thus canot start the car.

In the show, the car mechanic mentioned that he got the flywheel from his friend, for free. all he did was ask.

summarising what the show is saying, all things can look perfect from the outside, but its whats inside that matters.

i know this entry abit no head no tail. haha~~ but its a meaningful movie la. hee

and on sunday, finally met peeps like Colin, ritchie, Lancaster, Donovan, jobbing, Randall.. Oh boys I missed all of u. =X

random post. cant help being random. =X

recently alot of human to human conflicts have happened, and it occured to me that I am not as alert, sensitive nor smart as I tot I am..

I'm alittle frustrated. sigh.

I'm changing job coming 3rd Oct.. This Friday will be my last day at work..

then need to clear 6 papers.

then comes some money issues (not small amount. not $1 or $2).

then conflicts with some of my good friends.

then exams are coming.

somehow everything just amounts up. why har? haha.

the escapist mentality within urges me to just dump everything and just enjoy myself. but i cant. lol. Goddddd why so many things together at the same time? You know I very stupid cannot multi-task liao lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Help me lehhhhhhhhhhh. =X