Blessed

201008 - Stressed

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 16:05:52 GMT

I have seldom felt this stressed. every stacks up and everything is forcing me to grow up and face the realities of this world.

From that sheltered company to the one i am now, I just feel like my life just took a 300029372138127321 degree twist and turn, and now i am here trying to orientate myself, while looking at the stack of notes i am supposed to read, and left to ponder, what have i got myself into.

I prayed that if God wants to use me in this industry, then let me into this industry. then suddenly i feel like im so lost in this industry. Im like a baby trying to comprehend what adults are talking about.

God continue to lead me please.. Let me shine for Yu, in this darkest hour.. I will be salt and light for You, but only if You permit me to. Its all in Your hands..

I consider this a great honour if You are testing me.. but please don't test me beyond my means.. I know that i should be joyful for the test, but please go easy on me..

101008

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 18:23:12 GMT

i really really really hate exams.

so many papers lining up.

i never thought that i were ever suffer from insomnia, but here I am.. having a fever and too stressed to sleep. cheers. Life is great!

Flywheel

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 03:50:13 GMT

Last Friday, went to have a ADULTS CG!

alot of ppl, and there was screening of the movie fly wheel.

which in the show, there was a car which was beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful, but had a damaged flywheel, thus canot start the car.

In the show, the car mechanic mentioned that he got the flywheel from his friend, for free. all he did was ask.

summarising what the show is saying, all things can look perfect from the outside, but its whats inside that matters.

i know this entry abit no head no tail. haha~~ but its a meaningful movie la. hee

and on sunday, finally met peeps like Colin, ritchie, Lancaster, Donovan, jobbing, Randall.. Oh boys I missed all of u. =X

random post. cant help being random. =X

170908

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 03:42:54 GMT

recently alot of human to human conflicts have happened, and it occured to me that I am not as alert, sensitive nor smart as I tot I am..

I'm alittle frustrated. sigh.

I'm changing job coming 3rd Oct.. This Friday will be my last day at work..

then need to clear 6 papers.

then comes some money issues (not small amount. not $1 or $2).

then conflicts with some of my good friends.

then exams are coming.

somehow everything just amounts up. why har? haha.

the escapist mentality within urges me to just dump everything and just enjoy myself. but i cant. lol. Goddddd why so many things together at the same time? You know I very stupid cannot multi-task liao lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Help me lehhhhhhhhhhh. =X

150808

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 07:28:09 GMT

wa im a bad blogger la. have not been blogging for the longest time..

Recently alot of things have been happening which I am truly grateful to God about.. the most being bible reading with Belinda.. haha.

Well Belinda is my girlfriend, and in case many people do not know, I am in adults service now, and she is a non believer. I din leave church horx. haha~

Life is moving progressively well.. I had finally finished Lee Strobel's Case for Christ. Really a worthy read. His last chapter on the conclusion truly touched me.

I have learnt a great deal in this half year. though things were in such a big turmoil, but I am glad to all the people who still love me.

Jin Hai.. thanks..
Pastor Jasmine.. thanks..
Meihwa.. thanks..
Xueting aka toilet tortise.. thanks..
Randall.. thanks..
Ritchie.. thanks..
Barnabas.. thanks..
Santono.. thanks..
Jorris.. thanks..
Jeremys (Qiu and buddie).. thanks
Terrence.. thanks..

thank you everyone for still accepting me though i have made a most unpopular decision.. I do not know yet how to face you ppl, but when i am ready, i'll ring ring you ppl out for supper or something ok? hee!

And now in a new CG, i have experienced a whole new level of fellowship.. with older ppl. hahaha~ no la joking! but im really made to think alot..

And my CL hanhui seems to love exercise alot. our "shepherding" sessions are either jogging or swimming. but im not complaining. love it!

Later im going for CG.. really excited. first CG! haha~

People change, but God is still the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow!
I do not just serve people.. I serve God's people.. I serve God!

I want to feel You tangibly again God. =)

240708 - I'm Home

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:08:21 GMT

whoa it has been a long time since i last blogged. ppl most prob already stop visiting my blog. haha~

I came back from reservist, and boy was it tough. phew! I'm glad i pulled through it all!

These 2 months, things happened and all.. Yesterday I spoke to my CL Han Hui, and I learnt so much from him in one night that almost felt like big slaps across my face. He asked alot of questions and all. Is this the difference between tertiary and adult? haha~ I have not been asked so many questions in 1 night, that made me stop and ponder, what exactly is my priority.. God, or people?

God, i learnt somethings through this time.. I had put you in the centre of things in my life, but i had not put You in the centre of my heart. I stopped thinking about how You would think, and put You as one who blesses blindly, as one who doesn't care, as one who is numb and immune to it all. God I had been wrong..

I lost my bible recently.. I have no idea where it went.. maybe its a clear indication that God wants me to start over, rebuilding my foundation, which is so needed, yet so sorely neglected.

Thank you God!

260508

Mon, 26 May 2008 03:03:53 GMT

im back from LC!

so much to update that i dunno where to start from. Praise God!

Will update when im home. hee~

150508

Thu, 15 May 2008 02:48:18 GMT

Yesterday I had a traumatising experience with this portable toilet on my way home from HQ..

When I stepped into the cubicle, i stepped on this puddle of water which i do not know is water or urine or a mixture of both. i felt sian almost immediately.

then after i peed finish, i pressed the flush button, and this water gushed out from the pipe and just splashed all over the floor, like when Moses hit the rock and water gushed out of the rock. WA I instantly felt disgusted. My shoes were soaked wet!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MAN~~~ I was so conscious abt my shoes, that whenever i smelled something alien, i will keep thinking its my shoes.

I swear I will rather pee in a mineral water bottle than go into one of these portable toilets. totally sian 0.5. I'm traumatised. can i sue the toilet operator? haha

140508 - Double D

Wed, 14 May 2008 04:32:42 GMT

Woo i got back my results.. much better than I thought!

I got double distinction.. its like in comparison to local institutes, its something like A ba.

I expected just a pass, but somehow ah. God You really blessed me leh.

100% credit to You. Thank You God!~

130508 - MC

Tue, 13 May 2008 05:24:25 GMT

I am on MC for yesterday and today. my back hurts.

the reason why im hurt can be narrowed down to a few reasons..

Carrying of table + Peixin's mighty kick + piggy back jeremy.

eh it was so bad that on sunday, i was crawling on the floor for afew metres when i got home. this kinda reminded me of just how frail life is, and how weak we humans truly are. =(

then for mother's day dinner, my da ge brought us all to one degree 15 for dinner. had alaskan crab. the whole meal costed around 700+. oh god. lavish living~ but i cant deny the fact that the crab is really good. yums~

eh dun feel like typing much. my back hurts. lol